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1、TheCrack-UpOneofthegreatsconfrontsthepressuresoffameinamostpublicforumByF.ScottFitzgeraldOriginallypublishedasathree-partseriesintheFebruary,March,andApril1936issuesofEsquireOfcoursealllife isaprocessofbreakingdown,buttheblowsthatdothedramaticsideofthework--thebigsuddenblowsthatcome,orsee

2、mtocome,fromoutside--theonesyourememberandblamethingsonand,inmomentsofweakness,tellyourfriendsabout,don’tshowtheireffectallatonce.Thereisanothersortofblowthatcomesfromwithin--thatyoudon’tfeeluntilit’stoolatetodoanythingaboutit,untilyourealizewithfinalitythatinsomeregardyouwillneverbeasgoo

3、damanagain.Thefirstsortofbreakageseemstohappenquick--thesecondkindhappensalmostwithoutyourknowingitbutisrealizedsuddenlyindeed.BeforeIgoonwiththisshorthistory,letmemakeageneralobservation--thetestofafirst-rateintelligenceistheabilitytoholdtwoopposedideasinthemindatthesametime,andstillreta

4、intheabilitytofunction.Oneshould,forexample,beabletoseethatthingsarehopelessandyetbedeterminedtomakethemotherwise.Thisphilosophyfittedontomyearlyadultlife,whenIsawtheimprobable,theimplausible,oftenthe“impossible,”cometrue.Lifewassomethingyoudominatedifyouwereanygood.Lifeyieldedeasilytoint

5、elligenceandeffort,ortowhatproportioncouldbemusteredofboth.Itseemedaromanticbusinesstobeasuccessfulliteraryman--youwerenotevergoingtobeasfamousasamoviestarbutwhatnoteyouhadwasprobablylonger-lived;youwerenevergoingtohavethepowerofamanofstrongpoliticalorreligiousconvictionsbutyouwerecertain

6、lymoreindependent.Ofcoursewithinthepracticeofyourtradeyouwereforeverunsatisfied--butI,forone,wouldnothavechosenanyother.AstheTwentiespassed,withmyowntwentiesmarchingalittleaheadofthem,mytwojuvenileregrets--atnotbeingbigenough(orgoodenough)toplayfootballincollege,andatnotgettingoverseasdur

7、ingthewar--resolvedthemselvesintochildishwakingdreamsofimaginaryheroismthatweregoodenoughtogotosleeponinrestlessnights.Thebigproblemsoflifeseemedtosolvethemselves,andifthebusinessoffixingthemwasdifficult,itmadeonetootiredtothinkofmoregeneralproblems.Life,tenyearsago