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1、做真正的自己——EllenWhenIfinishedschool,Iwascompletelylost.Andbyschool,Imeanmiddleschool,butIwentaheadandfinishedhighschoolanyway.AndI-Ireally,Ihadnoambition,Ididn'tknowwhatIwantedtodo.Idideverythingfrom-Ishuckedoysters,Iwasahostess,Iwasabartender,Iwasawaitress,Ipaintedhouses,Isoldvaccuumcleaners,Ihad
2、noidea.AndIthoughtI'djustfinallysettleinsomejob,andIwouldmakeenoughmoneytopaymyrent,maybehavebasiccable,maybenot,Ididn'treallyhaveaplan,mypointisthat,bythetimeIwasyourage,IreallythoughtIknewwhoIwas,butIhadnoidea.Likeforexample,whenIwasyourage,Iwasdatingmen.SowhatI'msayingis,whenyou'reolder,most
3、ofyouwillbegay.Anyonewritingthisstuffdown?Parents? 当我从学校毕业的时候,我完完全全迷失了自我,学校我指的是初中(大家笑),后来我也继续念完了高中。我当时,没有任何的野心,不知道自己想做什么。我什么工作都做,我挖生蚝,当带位员,做酒保,当服务生,粉刷房子,卖吸尘器……完全不知道自己想做什么。我只想随便找个糊口的工作,过一辈子,能有钱负得起房租就行,我完全没有任何计划。我想说的是,当我像你们这么大的时候,我真的以为我了解自己,但其实我并不了解,举例来说,我像你们这么大的时候,还在和男人约会(大家大笑)。所以我的意思是:当你们再长大些后,
4、大多数的人,都会是gay!(场内爆笑,ellen自己也笑了)Anyway,IhadnoideawhatIwantedtodowithmylife,andthewayIendeduponthispathwasfromaverytragicevent.Iwasmaybe19,andmygirlfriendatthetimewaskilledinacaraccident.AndIpassedtheaccident,andIdidn'tknowitwasherandIkeptgoing,andIfoundoutshortlyafterthat,itwasher.AndIwaslivingin
5、abasementapartment,Ihadnomoney,Ihadnoheat,noair,Ihadamattressonthefloorandtheapartmentwasinfestedwithfleas.AndIwassoul-searching,Iwaslike,whyisshesuddenlygone,andtherearefleashere?Idon'tunderstand,theremustbeapurpose,andwouldn'titbesoconvenientifwecouldpickupthephoneandcallGod,andaskthesequesti
6、ons.总之,当时我不知道我的人生要干嘛,而最后我找到了我人生目标,却是因为一件十分悲惨的事。我那时可能才19岁,当时的女朋友因为车祸身亡了。我经过了事故现场,并不知道是她,还继续往前走。不久后,才知道那是她。我当时……住在地下室的公寓,没有钱,没有暖气,房子里都是跳蚤。我困惑不已,心想,为何她突然走了,而为何我又呆再这样一个境地里。我无法理解,但其中一定有什么理由。要是能直接拿起电话打给上帝问个清楚,不就太好了。AndIstartedwritingandwhatpouredoutofmewasanimaginaryconversationwithGod,whichwasone-si
7、ded,andIfinishedwritingitandIlookedatitandIsaidtomyself,andIhadn'tevenbeendoingstand-up,ever,therewasnoclubintown.Isaid,"I'mgonnadothisontheTonightShowWithJohnnyCarson"-atthetimehewastheking-"andI'mgonnabethefirstwomaninthehistory